Why do you get to be so happy, live a life so full,
While the crumbled remains of my heart lay in your wake?
Why do you get to look like perfection, nothing broken, smiling so big?
When every time I see you, think of you, hear of you
My chest grows tight with rejection, imperfection, misdirection...
I was loyal, you were not.
Turning your back when things grew rocky,
Yelling, screaming, cursing, shaming,
Giving ultimatums, pointing, blaming.
Playing the victim when I needed a break
From the yelling and screaming and shaming I faced.
Then saying I rejected you!
Trashing my name, continuing to shame.
Were you afraid of my truth?
Afraid it would show a possible flaw
in the stands you take, in the perfection you fake?
Well now we wait.
I don't know...
I don't know...
because now I doubt everything I once knew.
Hi! I'm Heidi,
Founder and Author of the SOS Blog. Simply Our Society exists for poetry lovers, book lovers, parents, midlife women and those recovering from eating disorders and hidden abuse. My hope is the SOSblog will become a resource to make life a little better and easier (with a special emphasis on this crazy season called midlife!).
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